wishing i was at camp

so i was supposed to go to the teen retreat this weekend. obviously im not there and heres why. i took a creative writing class as an extra english credit this semester so i already had all the credits i needed to graduate. the class was tough so instead of trying hard on it i pretty much blew it off. so natually i ended up with an f on my quarter report card. my parents looked at this and said that i was grounded and couldnt go to camp. this bothered me most of all cuz all my other grades were As and Bs except for an incomplete in my mandatory english class world lit. but that was just because i had been sick and needed to make up a quiz. i made that up and that should be up to either a b plus or a minus depending on how the quiz went. so i just talked to my mom about visiting friend whose grandma just died even though im grounded. she said no and yelled at me for this quite a bit about how i dont care about anything except myself. her reasoning for this is that her and my dad work very hard for me to go to kettle and then i just blow it off which means i dont care about them. they know this cuz they see a report card with 8 letters on it and one of those is a study hall so its really only 7. i know she was just blowing off steam because she was very angry about the F but it really showed me how little me and my mom understand each other. i know she doesnt really think that all i care about is myself and i know that she loves me. she thinks i would show my love for her by doing well in school but i dont understand that at all. doesnt doing well in school only benefit me? maybe i just need to grow up a little. actually its not a maybe and i need to grow up a lot. doing well in school as well as everything else is prolly a good start. since starting to write this she says i can go see my friend if i clean my room and get some homework done, i guess taking some time to cool off helped us both out. time to get to work.